I do, don't I...... (sigh) Wish I could just give my brain a break from you. Or like that Demi Lovato song "Give Your Heart a Break". Darn, almost every post I've posted so far is about you. You you you you..... I wonder how you felt when you had your heart broken like you said, or more so who broke it. That's the thing you see, I'm thinking again, dwelling, sinking into the endless juxtaposition of my real life, and my fantasies (or delusions) of what would be of us if I was different, if you were different. I've figured out two things I'm lacking of. One, the courage (obviously). And two, the humility to confront you, go up to you with nothing but the truth, to get rid of the idea that it is you who should act first. I'm telling you, if the rumors are true and neither of us dare to confront each other with the blunt, plain truth without further exaggerations, elaborations or exasperation, this will, if you like it or not, pass by. I would regret it of course, but what about you? My brain keeps pestering me on the possibilities of myself having been the one. If it is so then here comes my evil twin again..... URGH! I seriously hate having to constantly argue with myself on these matters! A part of me says you deserve it for what you did to her, but the other half says No, you don't deserve it because you didn't do it on purpose while I...... kinda did ^~^"
(sigh again) well I've got a script to write see ya'll laterrrrrr~
Okaayy...who is 'her'? Is it me?? >A<
ReplyDeleteOkay. Thats enough. Im giving you a lecture. Nah not really but let me give you this small piece of advice. Ever heard of the things people say when they're in your position?
ReplyDeleteOne simple solution:
Drop everything, forget about the world, and spit the truth.
You'll never ever be able to calm down until you do so. Trust me. I've been through a different scenario and you know too BUT its the same concept.You kept telling me to don't get involve with other people's business but aren't you dragging 'her' in this too? Its your feeling of love, its you and him Not you her AND him.
DON'T put her feelings into this.Don't think whether he deserves it or not,whatever you mean in the last paragraph.No idea what you're talking about. NOBODY and I mean NOBODY have the right to say who deserves it or not in a relationship. Big Mistake. You know you love him so don't put it into consideration about what he did to her.You don't have to take revenge on him for her. Its unnecessary.
And please, come on we all know. Don't give me that "get you facts right gurl" thing. Put down your pride, ignore what people say, FORGET about the consequences for awhile. Wont die if you do that aight? Find the courage to tell him, you never know if you never try, who knows if you'll have a happy ending?You have the power to change your own future, so why not give it a shot?kays. Im done. Now its your choice to change your fate or leave it going on forever.